Memory...

I found something that i wrote some years back and it reminds me how painful i felt then, is over all over, long long ago...

LIFE IS UNPREDICTABLE AND FULL OF UNCERTAINTY
ONCE I EVER THOUGHT TIME IS THE BEST EVIDENCE OR PROOF OF LOVE BUT I WAS DEADLY WRONG!

TIME CHANGE
PEOPLE CHANGE
THINGS CHANGE
ENVIROMENT CHANGE
FEELING CHANGE
SITUATION CHANGE
LOVE CHANGE
THOUGH HISTORY WILL NEVER CHANGE

I ALSO USED TO THINK THE POWER OF LOVE CAN CONQUER ALL OBSTACLES BUT I REALIZED I WAS BEING TO NAVIE & FAR FROM REALITY.

ALL IS BUT A DREAM...

I CAN'T CHANGE HISTORY NOR I CAN TURN BACK THE CLOCK.
TODAY OF THE PAST REGRETS & FUTURE FEARS.TOMMORROW?TOMORROW I MAYBE MYSELF WITH YESTERDAY'S.
I MUST CONFESS THERE'S STILL SOME RESIDUE OF MY LOVE THEIR FIRE RETAIN.
HOPELESS & TONGUE-TIED YET I STILL LOVE HIM WITH SHOOTING PAIN.

I NEVER ASKED FOR THE SUNSHINE
I NEVER WANTED THE RAIN
I NEVER ASKED FOR THESE FEELING
AND I NEVER WANTED THIS PAIN
I DIDN'T ASKED FOR THE MOON
DIDN'T ASKED FOR THE WORLD
OR THE HEAVEN ABOVE
ALL I LONGED FOR IS LOVE

MY HEART HAS HAD JUST ABOUT ENOUGH, THE FEELING HAS SHARED & THE HEARTACHE I HAVE BARED.
ALL THE TEARS I HAD FOUGHT, IF I WERE TO TAKE HIM BACK TO BE MY SIDE I WOULD LOSE TOO MUCH INCLUDING MY PRIDE.
I DON'T KNOW IF I AM ABLE TO TAKE THE SHOOTING PAIN HE PLANTED BUT...